Christmas time is here!

So I imagined when I had Lucy on Oct 8th...that I would be up and running and feeling like myself for Halloween.  Well, Halloween came and I barely moved off the couch.  So then I was sure I would be feeling wonderful and grateful surely before Thanksgiving...and again, it came and went and I cried a majority of the day. In fact...that was one of my lowest days cause I felt so guilty for not feeling happy. But I have good news I think...as hard as Lucy has been and my emotions going CRAZY...it seems that I am starting to feel good just in time to enjoy the best HOLIDAY of all.  I am happy to say that I actually felt happy this night.  I wasn't faking it and I wasn't smile crying...I am having better days all the time and Lucy...well, it is slow, but we are seeing a difference in her too. (If she would just go back to sleep in the middle of the night...I would love that!) I know that we realistically probably have a few more months of this...and it breaks my heart for her...but we will make it through.
  We are so blessed by wonderful friends and family who love us and have helped so much.  I love Christmas time and I feel close to my Savior.  I am grateful to have him be my friend through these last few months. He truly can bear our sorrows and our grief.
Now that I am feeling a little more "TERI" like...I need to catch up and to blog...but until then....
 here are some rather cute kiddos who got to see Santa at the ward Christmas party.
 I love my family. 

Spencer didn't even seem scared.

 

Aubrey had requested NOT to sit on his lap, but gave into the peer pressure.

 

All smiles buddy!

 

This is the WORST pic of little Lucy...but sadly, it shows how she is feeling most of the time...uncomfortable I guess.

 

 

May this Month be AWESOME for us all.  Christmas time is truly the best time of the year.