I made it to....trimester number 2!

This made me laugh.  Which I needed today!

I have been wanting to blog for some time now about my feelings or thoughts about being pregnant.  However...every time I want to do it...I am worried it will be too depressing, or negative and I would really like to just stay positive and post about the FUN.. HAPPY ... GREAT moments in my life.  I don't really want to remember in all honesty my last few months.  The other day I had a "good day."  This meant I actually showered, did laundry and went the entire day without throwing up.  I thought...YAY I am actually almost in my 2nd trimester and the worst of it is over!! I should have blogged that day...

Because here a couple of days later I am sick as can be...bummed, lazy...nauseous and completely OVER this!!! I know I am absolutely no fun to be around.  I apologize to all who have seen me lately.  I have nothing exciting to say or add to any conversation. 

Unless you find it illuminating to hear about how I threw up the other day while at a stoplight.

I haven't actually done or thought about anything for weeks.  I think I only think about baby names..heartburn...and when I get to sleep again.  I read babycenter.com posts about other mothers who are suffering.. (this makes me feel better about my lot) then I rest...then I eat...then I am sick again. 

Spencer is being raised by the Wii and currently Mario Party 9.  My other children luckily have school and other things to keep them busy.  Jake and I are on speaking terms...but barely.  haha My "mommy guilt" is at a all time high right now.

There ya go.  The joys of being pregnant when your hormones are whacked and another couple of weeks of being sick seems like another couple of years. 

Hmmmm so much for this post staying positive. 

Let me try to salvage it. 

Aubrey is being super cute and loves talking to me about all things pregnant lady.  She currently loves to come up with baby names...usually girl ones.

I look at my other children differently...with so much appreciation.  I am reminded that I have done this before...because the reward is sooooo worth it! I see their beautiful personalities and wonder who else will join us.

I have seen amazing friends help without being asked.  Thank you!

I have been on Zofran this pregnancy and have thrown up less than I did with my first pregnancy.  This is by far the kind of pregnancy that I could have been SUPER sick and dehydrated like I was then.  I am grateful for that stupid drug.  (I say this...because some of the side affects are NOT fun...) but the pros outweigh the cons and I am grateful for that.

Time has slowed down.  This is usually not positive...but it does seem like I get to have a whole year that will drag on instead of fly by!!!  Time really does usually go to fast...so I will at least have that.

I have prayed a lot and learned that I am VERY grateful for the everyday health that I usually have.  I am grateful for the knowledge that at SOME POINT (hopefully soon) I will be back to normal.  I am grateful for my normal.

My husband has gone above and beyond to help...no DO the grocery shopping/errands.  The bulk of child care when he is around and the food.  Without him we would just starve I think.  Thanks babe.

That is all I can think of for now.  Please don't think that I am not thrilled to be expecting...I AM!  We tried for this baby for a long time.  He or she is very LOVED and WANTED and ANTICIPATED.  I know that wishing I didn't have extreme morning sickness...doesn't change it.  It is here and I knew it would be.  I guess that is one positive. 

So...to my future child.

I KNEW it was gonna be this hard.  It has been before...but I willing chose to feel sick everyday for weeks on end...because I wanted YOU to be apart of our family....forever! I LOVE YOU!!!